07 November 2010
Inspiration in a Rut
I have been inspired by some pretty awesome people. The Julie and Julia Project, A Dress A Day, Wish Jar, just to name a few of the truly amazing people doing truly amazing things out there. Somewhere inside my head I know these are people just like me. I know they were in a rut themselves and got out of it. I know they became amazing because they reached beyond what people expected of them. They are driven to do something extra. Why can't I believe I can too? I don't just want to be wife, mother of two. I want to be traveler, creative being, singer of truth! Somewhere inside my head I don't believe I can do it. I have a great fear of saying I will do something and then fail. I do have a great desire for greatness (just personal mind you, I don't want fame at all). I want to be able to do something now for my life and my family life. We want to travel and it seems like it is so far away. I think we can do it faster. I think we can do it a lot better than we are doing it now. I don't want to be doing this alone. I want a partner. But I have that and yet I feel that I need to do something to make myself stronger. I have survived a great deal just because I had to. I want to do something now that proves to me that I can do great and amazing things. I need to remind myself that I am a person of worth. I am a beautiful goddess of the world. I am. . . I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't have a particular thing that I am interested in doing for every day for a year yet. Any ideas?
Posted by E. L. Walker at 12:00 PM