23 January 2012

The Invisible Mother

Shutter speeds use to be slow.  In order for the picture to be clear, those seated in frame would have to hold perfectly still.  Mothers were often enlisted to hold their children still while covering themselves so as not to be in the picture.

I can't tell where the mother is in either one of these pictures can you?

This feels like some bizarre metaphor for abused women.  Some of these pictures are so weird.  Why not just have the mother in the picture with her children?  Really?  Don't mother's count?

Breastfeeding part 2

Sorry about the sound.  It was only after recording that I realized bean was banging the keys on the computer and making a racket.  Oops.  Not re-recording as I don't have time to deal with the issue.  


Holy Guacamole! I can Paint!

I don't know how I never realized I could do this.  I am a very artistic person.  Yet here I am just discovering that I can paint.  Maybe it's that I never gave myself permission to try or to put myself out there.  Even just for self satisfaction (tee hee no not that kind) I never realized that I could do this!

Comparison of Leaf to portrait

Best I could do for a cute growing moving baby!

Should have made glasses bigger but oh well it's still awesome for a first try!!!

I am so excited to be creating!  I'm finding ways to do so with baby in tow.  How amazing are Mamas?!

20 January 2012

Apartment Before Furniture

I'm way to happy and hyper in this video! Pardon me I've been in a post partum stupor forever and finally feel better.  It's over the top.  But hey--happy is as happy does.

Robo Boogie!

19 January 2012

18 January 2012

New Year New Insights

I've had some pretty serious brain function increase lately.  In fact I've had some of those "ah ha!" moments that change your life.

The most major of these moments I'd like to share because it effects so many women.  I dare say it effects so many people.

Self Value.

I know. I know.  I'm not going to get all new age on you.  I'm gonna get all: hey man this is cool you need to think about this, on you.

It's about how we look about ourselves.  It's about how I've looked at myself and how I now look at myself.  It's about how I viewed others and how I now view others.

I am just like every one else.

That's it!

For all this time (30 years) I've had the feeling other people were more together.  That they somehow knew some secret that made their lives perfect.  Somehow they were cool, and I would never be that.  I would never understand the world, or love, or be cool, or smart.

I've come to the realization that people view me that way.  That I have friends that say "you're so calm and collected" or "I don't know how you do it" and they're thinking the same thing that I've thought about them.  That there is some secret that she knows that I will never get.

Here's the secret:  we bring all our history to the table when we view the world and the people in it.  No two people hear a conversation the same way.  No two people have the same experience the same way.  No two people think the same way.

We all have our "truth" about the world.  Some people's "truth" is sad and others is joyful.  It isn't a constant thing either.  It can change upon the knowledge  we gain.  It changes with our physical well being.  It can change with the weather and the season.

To sum it all up:  no one has all the answers.  No one ever will.  To seek the answers to life is the human quest.  Who am I?  What is my purpose?  Why am I here?  To be a student of life.  To find a higher understanding of self and others and human nature and to be "free" of  stigmas we put upon ourselves and others.

I hope this makes some sense, because having had this revelation has changed everything for me.  I feel a deep calm in my heart that I have been seeking for a long time.  This is just the beginning at the new year.

A perfect time to start.

13 January 2012